Thursday, November 27, 2003

slow death on the inside - by me
the girl i despise
the one i dislike
in the mirror
her eyes are met by mine

oblivion written on the faces of others
as i endure my life
its a slow death on the inside
just let me go get a switchblade knife

tired of being second best
tired of being in her shadow
this i desparately request
help me get way from her

my friends all nonexistant
my life in a downhill
so i am persistant
to end all this fast

oblivion written on the faces of others
as i endure my life
its a slow death on the inside
just let me go get a switchblade knife

C at 6:02 PM |
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haha. guess its obvious i havent blogged for the longest time ever.
havent been in a good mood.
though i splurged about a thousand bucks already.
which means i got a digicam!
but im still in the lousiest of moods.
dun ask why.
unless you wanna hear me physco babble to you.

C at 5:58 PM |
------ Saturday, November 15, 2003

by me.
i see a little girl on the swing
innocence in her peepers,
ten years ago one spring.
i want to be her again because
im tired of everything happening.

the light at the end of my road is dimmer
as the seconds passs.
there's no hope , not a glimmer.
there's a silence thats so hushed
which dulls all things that shimmer

i want to return to the time
where skinned knees were the only thing that hurt
and going to playgrounds my pastime
but reality is curt
-im well past that stage.

this is where my road ends
where i take a new turn.
a new beginning transcends.
will you wait for my return?
there are things i have to amend.

C at 4:30 AM |
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i am dead beat.
just finished revamping a blogskin for my lil sis.
totally lacked originality.
im tired, thats why.
and my blog is so scrreewed!!!
it still refuses to blog on time!

C at 2:09 AM |
------ Friday, November 14, 2003

i seriously do not know wad's wrong with my blog
it only shows my blog entries whenever it pleases!
not when i blog!!
so my blog is a lagging one.
but a rather pretty one at that.
hahahahaha.

C at 4:35 PM |
------ Thursday, November 13, 2003

watched uptown girls yesterday.
and i can honestly declare : i sooooooo love brittany murphy!!!! :D
she's awesome. charismatic. kickass gorgeous too!!
almost like me. hahahah. except for the kickass gorgeous part
her dressing's soooo fairy -like and flouncy!!
just love it. just so so so so love it!!
-went to church today to help out in the tmt skit
went well.
was a total klutz though. broke my gLAss bottle and spilled vanilla coke on my shirt. silly me.

C at 5:24 AM |
------ Sunday, November 09, 2003

woke up to my hp this morning, my tutor was locked out. ha.ha.ha.
headed late to church for some lame meeting.. it didnt even happen.
then had the tmt lang trg. that wasnt bad.
headed to plaza sing for dinner. that wasnt bad too.
wad was bad was my mood. it got soooooooo freaking black that i just about bullied everyone.
i hate that feeling.
but took neoprints. haha. if you know how to get to my photo album, go aheads. if not. too bad.
yeaps. eneded up in carrefour where jacyln, the rest and i bought two cartons of aloevera apple juice. tricked the guys that it was a sample.
guillible beings.
jacyln and hannah comtemplated staying over. how i wish they did.
when life hands me a lemon, its usually in the form of lemon juice in the eye.
how true.

C at 11:14 AM |
------ Friday, November 07, 2003

wooohooo.
i revamped my whollle blog design. exhausting. did it around 2.30am last night.
not bad. considering that im a newbie at html.
i didnt go to school today!! cause i had an a2 for chinese! *pleased grin*
hahaha.
okok. wil blog more later.
after i figure wad's wrong with my blog!!

C at 2:58 PM |
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