Sunday, August 29, 2004

after a huge mental debate, ive finally submitted to the notion that i am actually in depression.
yeah. i actually am depressed.
i wonder why, do you?
its rather mild actually.
pffff, you go, its only mild yet you try to raise a hulabaloo. bah, humbug.
but no, the milder it is, the longer the period during which it gradually builds up, and the more it impacts me.
at this point now you'd be leaning back in your chair, shrugging, and kinda absentmindedly wondering who it is.
dont. dont even try.
cause your the one.
your the cause of it.
think hard, think long, and wonder.
you might just recall what you actually did.

C at 12:24 AM |
------ Saturday, August 21, 2004

i have no idea why im getting myself into the muck of american politics.
but i really have to voice this out.
i cant stand the sight of kerry.
so what if he served in the vietnam war before?
tell me he's gonna use the experience to go battle on the frontline of the next upcoming war. bullshit.
and why is he so against bush's waged war? come on. be realistic. if bush didnt do so, it would send the message across that america was intimidated by the terrorists. and guess what? they would be bold enough instigate another bombing. aloha back 9/11?
stupid stupid kerry.
and kerry's root cause to america's probelms now? bush.
he promises to rid the white house of bush within his first year of presidency.
what right does he have to remove bush of his place in the white house?
freak. take a proper look at kerry. doesnt he look like a power crazed jerk?
right right. go on, go on bout yr one and only medal.
that should be the proudest thing you are of in yr resume.
for any wrong info ive provided, feel free to correct me.
for any opinion ive aired you've found distasteful, recall this phrase - 'freedom of speech'.

C at 11:33 PM |
------ Monday, August 16, 2004

i had wanted to blog bout paltry stuff that occured today, but that changed after i had a conversation with cheryl. one that might have possibly altered my life.
it was a heart-to-heart talk.
she challenged me to find my friend in Jesus. (thanks cheryl, for being you.)
and i shall take it up, and try my best, no matter what attempts to deter me.
who cares if i feel like i have no more friends in church?
HE's there.
(:

C at 11:56 AM |
------ Tuesday, August 10, 2004

after a certain period of consideration and much reluctance ive decided to post my founders' day pictures online, and let the virtual world take a peek.
but there's a catch.
only by confessing something, you'd then be granted admittance to it.
im a busybody, now show me the pictures!
hahahahahaahah i cant tell you how much it amuses me.
ok.
anyways. i chanced upon several other blogs and kinda wondered why my blog never had flamers who ranted and sprouted nonsense on the floobleboard.
haha.
i kinda like it this way anyways.

C at 10:48 AM |
------ Sunday, August 08, 2004

ever since i went for a haircut
and the last time i took a long, hard look in the mirror,
i gave myself a huge scare.
and kinda swore never to step out the house till i looked better again.
alas, i went for a bbq today
and true enough,
it didnt turn out great.
in fact, it was awful.
man. oh wells.
i do have a hat somewhere in my room.

C at 2:56 AM |
------ Friday, August 06, 2004

i skipped school today and am not very sure why.
possibly cause i was still too dazzled by the major photo-taking affair of last night.
or it could be due to my swollen feet caused by wearing four-inch heels and running bout in them for the entire night.
or maybe just cause thursday is the longest most boring school day of the week.
haha. shrug. ill never know
and i'll never tell.
some people said i looked like marilyn monroe in my outfit; others said i resembled barbie, and one commented i was very 50s.
i beam in memory of these remarks. i love my white swishy dress, C-initial earring and four inch heels. :D

C at 12:13 AM |
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