top 4 things i feel like doing everyday :

1. throwing my econs lecture notes into the BITCH'S face and walking out of class. [and as i have realised, my econs teacher is not THE MADAM BITCH, but actually Satan dressed in a very ugly leopardprint blue and pink skirts].
2. stuffing my nalgene bottle into THAT mouth to stop the DAILY DAILY DAILY WHINING.
3. ransacking the chem labs for conc acid to pour into the eyes of whoever who snickers around or glares at me.
4. walking to the principal's office and declaring that im quitting school.

top 4 things i feel like saying everyday :

1. Did you leave yr brain at home still attached to the charger?
2. Do you know that yr skirt is way too short and NOBODY wants to see yr vag***?
3. I would really like to see what conc acid does to that MOUTH of yours.
4. Mr Quek, i am officially withdrawing from school.

to anyone who can help : how exactly does one

• control her temper and prevent regretable behavoir she would encounter during a ridiculously provocative situation during netball trainings?
• survive when no one in class really likes her?

to my econs teacher:

i surrender. you are THE MADAM bitch. ill resign from my role of queen bitch of the universe.

the killers - smile like you mean it

1. someone badmouthed me to my back. yes. haha i know it sounds stupid, but i didnt bother to turn around because there was simply zilch i could do.
2. a guy was looking up my skirt when i was sitting the guy's way in the library, and even told another guy to check it out. im not deaf you know.
3. i studied hard for the bloody econs test. half an hour of feverish studying is crazy shit for me. when i handed in my test, my teacher stood still right in front of the class, and announced seriously 'when i saw the answers on charissa's test, my heart sank. my heart sank beneath my feet.' BLOODY FUCKER. she really dislikes me and takes every opportunity to ridicule and mock me openly in class!! well. i jolly well actually wish her bloody black heart sinks 6 feet deep.

thats all that really happened today. and i ran 5k again. in 30.33 mins. ugh.

just the other day i went shopping (again) and was checking out the new season of clothes at mango. the theme is kinda Thanksgiving day, isnt it? its so Native-Indian-meets-American-Cowboy look. please. the jeans are such a raw blue that all the wanna be fashionistas would look like they have started to openly shop at their favourite haunt - This fashion. or the Value shop.

snort. i watched some girls go into a frenzy over the new stuff at mango, and well. just that i can tell if your actually wearing last season's clothes, or worse, last last season's Mango Basic. gag me now. Zara is no better. the theme of the clothes are hopelessly confusing. some vintage, some sequinned, some pink, some white, some black. PLEASE, the Zara designer, if your gonna make us splurge on lousy quality stuff, at least concentrate on a central theme and make it look good!!!

all this is ridiculous, i tell you. on the other other other hand, i do have my eye on the tie-dyed top from Mango, even though i know even my grandma would know its from Mango and where is the fun in that, really?

haha. but i just might get it. just because.

• 5th jan, wed : i walked off, right in the middle of training. i was irked, and immediately muttered 'forget it. im leaving'. and then i turned on my heel and stalked away, without a single glance back. and i still dont understand why some claim that i have a bad attitude. wry look.
  
• 8th jan, sat : i stayed home the whole day, alone. i didnt go for guitar cause i had no idea there was lessons. i didnt go for cumi because well, what do you think?
  
• 9th jan, sun : i didnt go to church, cause i had a daisy tan netball carnival to attend. i was glum initially, but when i started to realise that the team is improving, i felt better. and when i saw THE HOT GIRL, man. it made my day. :D:D:D:D.
  
• 10th jan, mon : EP camp comm final meeting; debrief. i was the earliest!! :D it felt good going to church. during the meeting, i felt like i was really being myself. making silly comments, shrieking like a cow and pushing my comments earnestly. the only evaluation made on my games was that the night games were too short. im surprised. people, my heart isnt fragile. that was only a one time thing; i'd make sure it is.
  
• 11th jan, tues : i get picked on by my econs teacher cause i enjoy sleeping and being stupid in her class.
  
• 12th jan, wed : it was a 5k run for netball. not easy, not easy, mentally, physically, and emotionally.
  
• 13th jan, thurs : i get picked on again by my econs teacher cause she is THE MADAM BITCH. heh.
  
• 14th jan, fri : rachel's 18th birthday celebration!! i left training at 1840hrs. and reached home at 0125hrs even though i left her place at 2320. thanks to some nincompoop.
  
• 16th jan, sun : church isnt the same as it used to be.

fallen from grace