Tuesday, April 26, 2005

days of mine arent worth the time and effort to meticulously record it all down.

but.
it was just a few days back where thailand still had its lure on me, and i yearned and hungered to return to bangkok every single moment, and felt the strong adrenline zap through me each moment i daydreamt about it.

but the time has sadly arrived where i no longer thirst for such a time. it really depresses me, till i am but a shell of myself. because for now, i cant care less for trips to anywhere in the world, or journeys to the edge of the seas.

because for now, what i really really want, is just for peace for a day, and my worries and the anchor chained onto my ankle to be unleashed into the wide deep ocean that i may run free and go on a rampage anywhere, everywhere with my friends.

:(( what a ludicrous thing to dream.

C at 11:40 PM |
------ Saturday, April 16, 2005

:) last friday's impromptu sleepover was awesomee.

last night's was great.

im tired of netball.

C at 7:24 PM |
------ Tuesday, April 12, 2005

everyday i withdraw
more and more into that shell of mine.
the world is mine to see, mine to feel, mine to touch,
but i am simply unable to make a difference in it.
for nobody hears me, or acknowleges me.

im withering away.
and i simply dont care.
i dont care if any of you do, because one day when i really vanish to my dreamland, it would just be perfect.
perfect in the sense nobody would really know where i am, perfect in the sense i dont have anyone to worry about.

so now i silently strive hard toward my goal, as i retreat slowly, gradually, surely.

and now, i dont talk in school.

now thats a first.

C at 11:44 PM |
------ hits. since 041104