ill say what i want - because i can

Monday, July 25, 2005

ALVIN'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION AT BREWERKZ WAS FANTASTIC.
it was rowdy, messy, gluttony, and did i mention the TRUCKLOADS OF FOOD?!
oh gosh oh goshhhhhhh the fooddddd --moans.
haha i ate so much i started jogging to the toilet and walking up and while the side of the table while everyone giggled at me.
ohhh THE FOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
it wasnt the bestbestbestbestest like want want crackers, HAHA, but it was fucking good, considering the company! :D

something which i found out today makes my world a little pinker. not the same hue that used to tint my world with my old rosetinted glasses, but just a shade pinker from the gray it has faded into.

like what i told my friend, when things get so bad that yr at the lowest point of yr life, the only
way left to go is up.

i know i sound emo on this bloody fucking blog all the time, but it is the one venue i can express half my thoughts and emotions that i keep locked up within me. barely half, cause im not that stupid. and please dont think im really that emo all the time, just talk to me normally----- or not.
oh fuck it, i guess being friends with me is like keeping a bomb in yr pocket.

:D

C at 12:44 AM |
------ Friday, July 22, 2005

ive become very disllusioned thanks to mankind. how it happened, i barely have the vaguest idea, but perfect examples from where i go to almost everyday will do fine indeed.

>>>>>>>>some fucker posted on the friendster bulletin board about Olsen twins posing nude -- the stupidest chain mail about changing the title to the most shocking one and making guileless people open it (i didnt open it, it was a lousy title to begin with). FUCKER, I TELL YOU. FUCKING ASSHAT OF AN IMBECILE. SHITHEAD BRAINLESS JERK. you better not try that again or you better watch out. it aint funny, and i dont mind venting all my frustrations on you alone. you prolly deserve it.

and thats a prime example of how im heaped on with disappointment with the actions of mankind to the extent im too weary to react. i'd actually want to jump up in fury and launch into an abusive string of vocabulary and verbally attack the person into shreds, but now i find it much less tiring and easier for me to just cry myself to sleep. easy. peasy.

bloody killers, bravery are getting mainstream. oh pooh pooh all you bloody buggers out there.

matt pond pa: champagne supernova

C at 11:46 PM |
------ Thursday, July 21, 2005

hmmm
SUMMER AND COHEN!! THE MALLPISODE! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

MARYKATE AND STARVOS! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

*ive nothing much else to blog about cause there really isnt anything. asshats.

C at 11:48 PM |
------ Friday, July 15, 2005

hi one and all (but very much possibly none),
am i a very horrible person?

so much so that

a close friend whom ive known for almost 6 yrs has lied to me about her family situation for almost 3 yrs
my sibling has blocked me off her msn ( i knew wayyy long ago, but i kept mum. besides, what can i do?)
im having the bare minimum number of friends in school
im getting the feeling im barely liked at all, even though i try. i really do.

i guess... i guess, well. i really am a horrible person then.

---and yes, i do know MK's pic isnt aligned properly. but who cares? MK's gorgeousness more than makes up for it. (:

C at 9:53 PM |
------ Thursday, July 14, 2005

chocolate -scientifically proven(or maybe not) that when consumed, it causes endorphins to be released in the body, sending 'im happy!' signals to the brain.

so now off i go to the kitchen to force down an entire bar of Meiji Black Chocolate down my throat.God knows how much i love chocolate. only in times like these.

C at 11:54 PM |
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oh pray dear souls,
oh do count for me how many friends i have in school!!

...

oh whee, what fun i have in school!

*now, fuck you. two can play at a game, and when i play, i play to win.

C at 11:53 PM |
------ Tuesday, July 12, 2005

once, about six years ago, when i first knew Bess, it seemed as if she was very amused by me.
not me and the things i say, but me overall as a person. possibly because i was different from the others, dfferent in a way i might not be proud of, being loudly and annnoyingly opinionated.
so much so often she would chuckle at my antics or even habits, and declared me a sanguine. maybe not purely one, but definately one.
at that time i had no idea what a sanguine was, and whenever i asked what it was, she would merely exclaim 'ohhh you can sell refrigerators/airconditioners (whichever one, my memory's failing me) to Eskimos!'
now i still am opinionated, but ive lost my boldness. i hide behind a screen of silence, and wonder whether i can still sell refregerators/airconditioners to those Eskimos. and then i think

oh sod it. im quitting my day job.

C at 5:52 PM |
------ Sunday, July 10, 2005

early noon, when my mother and i were on our way to lunch, my mother spied a minibus on the road and pointed it out to me, along with rhetorical questions of how much one would cost and whether it uses petrol or diesel (rhetorical mainly because i wouldnt for my life's sake have the answers to these questions haha). i took a mere glance and it, and my brain yet chose to register a different image; a flashback.
a flashback of a noisy, beaten up old van with a missing slidedoor rattling its way up the dusty road, wheezing to a loud halt. i distinctly remembered myself hearing the noise, and a drizzle of hope and excitement rushed through me. i looked up and lo and behold! Bank and gang!! i hollered their names loudly enthusiastically, dashing to greet them as they piled out of the vehicle, equally excited to come to church and to see us! i also recalled that while both parties were equally joyful to see each other, we were at a total loss of words, having less than 50 words we mutually understood but were of no use conversationally.

at the very risk of sounding cliche, i really have to sigh that time has really flown. something i wished never happened, but impossible to actualise.

C at 9:59 PM |
------ Wednesday, July 06, 2005

top few things i hate hearing you say/seeing you do (read:that makes me wanna whack you in your face)

telling me yr flu has been FOREVER, as compared to my gastric-fever that has lasted for two weeks. fuck, right.
asking me hypothetically in a movie, why bother living when everyone's seemingly dead when the protagonists are running for their lives.
whining whining whining whining about how you look in the class photo. when nobody answers yr whines(x a million), get it into yr thick skull that they dont give a shit
acting like im avoiding you and then treating me like a disease
asking me to collect ridiculous magazines when you can collect them yrself
lame lame lame stupid fucking brainless jokes that nobody cares for
and IGNORING ME FOR THE VERY REASON I SHOULD BE IGNORING YOU FOR. fucking bitch.

nothing more for now, but im sure as the days go by i'll be able to collect more and more of these cause my tolerance level is dipping wayyyyy low. grrrrr.

C at 11:58 PM |
------ Friday, July 01, 2005

:D been websurfing and found a totally adorable website :D its an advertising campaign for an american burger chain, but its fun!! here you go.. www.goodtobesquare.com !

andddd haha would you pay s$4200++ for a watermelon? not the normal green ones, but a black oneeeee! :S

C at 9:23 PM |
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haha i realise i dont have a blog where people comment and pester me to update update update. but nonetheless, here i am! :D
as per July 1st 0127am, im sitting here at my comp, enduring my head that keeps spinning, and a fever that keeps heating up( there's nothing like a 38.7 degree fever to celebrate the end of the midyrs) . my tummy's getting worse too. :(
but so far, since from the start of my exams, ive had gastric flu, according to my mum (who's seen loads of doctors and is apparently a doctor herself now. haha). gastric flu is no joke to have. during papers im breaking out constantly in cold sweat, along with a throbbing headache, trembling fingers and an immense backpain. oh yeah, not to forget, bad, bad gastric.
i would blog about how my 18th birthday came and went, but my head is spinning too much( read: and there's sharapova vs williams wimbledon 2005 semis live on cable right now! (;) .
so ill take a raincheck, and (hopefully) be back with pretty pics and more :D.

C at 1:51 AM |
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