chemistry has never been better hehe
ADORABLEEEEEEEE hl!
haha my CUTENESS pf
HL! :))
my class
my FAVORITE NETBALL JUNIOR!! :D
peishan whose handwriting is awesomeee :D
my STAR SHOOTER! :D
the GD who refuses to remove her bib forever. my best netball friend! :D:D
my FAVORITEST TEAMMATES <3
i never thought i'd say this, but i actually have friends!
HAHA. i hope.
lordy!
im amazed at the sheer load of food ive managed to consume so far and its only 5pm!!
ive downed
a pack of instant tomyam noodles (WHICH I COOKED MYSELF!! ((((((((((:)
20 WANGWANGS!! (oh hush all those who'd correct me haha)
one tangerine flavoured 100plus. ooh yummyy
3 wontans (overcooked, but nevertheless good comfort food)
1 bottle of yakult or vitagen haha i cant tell the diff
hugeeee cup of ribena!
haha i know it doesnt sound like a lot but my mouth has been working ever since i woke up! and im currently eating a bowl of longans noww! sweet :))
and my mum's got me VANILLA PODS.
VANILLA PODS! IVE GOT VANILLA PODS!
wheeeee. ahah you have no idea how overjoyed i amm :)))))))))
im gonna make lovely lovely vanilla scented stuff soon but first, off to make VANILLA SUGAR! ::D:DD:D:D:D:D:D:DD:D:D:D:D:D:
cant wait to meet chiasin to eat more stuff later. ahah and bring her my chocolatechip muffins that we can eat together! :D:D
HORRIBLE HORRIBLE DAYYYYYY
lack of interesting and proper vocabulary due to devastation endured through the course of the day.
BEST NETBALL FRIEND PULLED OUT OF PROM. boo. :'(
cant wait to play softball and netball tml though. (:
and im baking macadamia chocolate chip cookies now! hope they turn out yummy :D
have been sleeping at 3am and waking at 6am for the entire week and the lack of sleep is rreeally getting to me.
i have the lowest attention span and drift off easily peasily into a nap during every lesson.
HAHAHA
thank goodness this week was only two days long! :)
today was tiringgggg.
had our j2 netball dinner at the netball court! :)))))
fled the scene after 1.5 slices of pizza, four drumlets and one coke float. haha couldnt risk eating anymore.
played capt's ball at the basketball court after that.
now that was when the colin-being-cute thing was getting way out of hand. at first it was amusing. now its plain awkward and exasperatingggggggggggggggg and not to mention, stallllllllllllleeeeeee.
ayyee. when im tired i ofteen do things that i dont mean and 99% of the time regret.
i got so fired up and angry just now i was GLARING at everyone.
bugger i hate being rushed. i HATE HATE HATE being rushed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so now im angry and bursting with
RAGING
RAGING
RAGING
EMOTIONS
SO fuck itttttt
fuck all that bs
and then,
FUCK YOU.
HAHA
today was a HAHA dayyyyy.
spent the last lesson of the day laughing till my face was beetred at edmund's attempts to skip remedial. it was ridiculous watching him shudder and pray, and then trying his best to be hidden by daryl, who was of course, forced to sit behind him and use a worksheet to cover his head.
HAHAHAHAH. WTF RIGHT.
and so after doing minimal work at COE today, i borrowed a shirt from shahul to run 2.4km and play a match against the juniors!
haha i looked like a hospital patient in the GARANGUTAN shirt. haha. horrendous.
and the match was ridiculousssssssssssssssssss. honestly i was flabbergasted at the juniors' play and passes and was moaning, groaning, stomping, screeching, whining, bitching and basically being really drama on court.
silly siqi and other juniors kept asking me to cool down or relax.
zzzzzzz.
but i was barely miffed or irritated.
exasperated, yes. HAHAHA.
but i was being melodramatic for the sake of being so!
pfftttttt my juniors seriously have no idea of how to enjoy life!
HAHA.
so basically i did zilch work today.
the moment i reached home, i started baking a brownie cake (so huge it has become a cake! (:) and gingersnaps.
ugh lousy gingersnaps. gingeryyyyyyyy so i gave them to my dad saying they were made for old pple so he should have them. HAHHAHA.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKKKKK
I TOTALLY FORGOT BOUT THE OC!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK. middlefinger. HAHAH. wtf man.
ok so im gonna wash the grim off me and try to do some work before my bed waylays meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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here i was going through pictures and pictures of gorgeous outfits fashioned from luxe and fabulous fabrics on style.com and vogue.co.uk then a thought jolts me from this dreamy state : I HAVE A PENDING GP FACTSHEET TO DO ON HOMOSEXUALITY OR YOUTH(?!?! i dont even know what im supposed to do).
HAHAHA the best part about it is that it was due more than a week ago! so was my essay.
fashion designnnnn oooohh my love. what the hell am i slaving over. i should just convince my mum to allow me to quit school.
or.
just withdraw myself when on impulse! WHEE HOW FUN! HAHAHA :D
AHH.
FUCK THIS FUCK THIS FUCK THIS
PLEASE GO AWAY I BEG YOU.
PLEASE.
AND THEN
PLEASE RAIN DOWN ON ME.
had my last national day celebrations in school!
im seriously gonna miss those, tacky or not.
im a singaporean, yay! HAHa. tacky, no?
and i guess, after one and a half years of resenting the situation im in, i guess i will come to miss the school and the people ive made friends with in there. :)
HAHA
i sobbed right in the middle of the canteen after crushing my AQ(which was half-done and had been stared blankly at for 20 mins straight) into a wad and vehemently throwing it over.
HAHAHA SO LOSERISH.
what a odd weekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
HAHAHHAHA ROCKER.
MARYKATE <3<3
when the day gets long ( monday being the longest ending at 1530, and along with monday blueeessssssss), the wooziness kicks in and my body starts to malfunction.
so this is when i start setting my face into one that's hard and tough, without a smile to crack the surface. my eyes droop, cause so. and then i slump onto the table, mentally cursing and berating myself for the countless bad desicions and actions ive made and taken, and feeling sorry for whoever whom ive inflicted them on, and then finally, feeling pity for myself. tears threaten to spill and splash, but pride holds them in, and suffocation takes place instead.
and then i feel a lil better ranting a wee bit. but i glance at my palm with my hastily scribbled -FUCKING- long homework list, and the weariness sets in again as i fight the urge to break down.
baking helps. ranting does too. what doesnt help, is anyone reading all this and trying to dissect and shrink me into talking it out, cause i will fucking not do so. and it would definately be a notch better if you or whoever has pretended you havent seen this, because if you mention a word of this entry to me, ill give you the cold shoulder, for as long as i like.
im a fucking bitch, and one that's messed up. so dont try screw around with me.