nothing really beats yr own father telling you to your face that your face is horrible and people get frightened by it.
plus the fact that every year all relatives agree distinctively in my face that the sibling is prettier.
i have no idea what to think or where to look anymore.
:',',(
i present to you... 2Harmony!!! <3
the two boys with the fingers on their heads, shijie and khatik, are little monsters i tell you!! every recess shijie comes to me with so-called his stomachache/hurtknee/cuts and ask to leave for home early, and khatik is always there to substantiate his cause!
the little boy in red qipao behind shijie, is one of the most adorable boys ive ever seeen!! utterly demure and quiet, and seldom gracing me with a smile, when let loose in class ryan runs about like there's no tml with a silly, cute(st!) and heartwarming grin. sighhhh
the boy whose face is cut by half is who i predict gonna be a hot dippityshit when he grows up. not only is trevor smart(doing REALLY well on tests/spelling/homework and being in some silly brainy club), he's athletic too(tennis player)! he prolly knows it too, going around practising his kissing on his female classmates, afterwhich the blessed victims come running to me complaining with a touch of happiness in their squeaky voices! hahahaaaaa
jade with the peace sign seems to love hugging me. :/. hahaha she's cute and tiny(iest in class!), but whiny and sticky. and eeewwwww bad, bad angle for mee.
this is most wellliked in class, teffanie, who has undoubtedly the coolest haircut ive ever seen(not shown in this pic)! hehehe which i am rather inspired on having! she's really obedient, attentive and is a joy to be around during recess!! <3
zz haha the oranges i received, plus a goodie bag i got from audwin, whose bday was onn thursday! it had mamee(which ive yet to eat ugh), kitkat (which im nto really keen on) and DAIM! oohh delisyy daim!
yeah i cant believe i got a cheeseburger and fries for cny. zzz HAHAHAHAHAH cracked me up right in class!!!
the desskk where i had to mark 30spellingbooks, 30mentalsumbooks, 30engwbs, 30mathwbs, 30mathtests and more random stuff. plusss i had to carry them myself tooo! no joke!
and thats miss tan or miss charissa to you. :)))
ever seen a mischeivous malay boy in a scarlet qipao? now lemme tell you, thats hot! <3
say hi to the newest members!!! :)))))
the older but relatively newer onestoo!
heart! my photos dont do em justice cause well, it is HARD TO USE A DIGICAM WITHOUT A WORKING SCREEN!!!
these few days have been rather hectic.
wednesdayyyy i had
3 interviews
one long walk in the heavy downpour in town
the amount of walking i did with really evil shoes(ZZ really bad. raffles city up and down to town's lido to winsland to paragon!)
incidental shopping (HONESTLY! :))
and hehehe a joboffer from the director of bikram yoga by total chance cause she offered me the shelter of an umbrella and we started chatting!
all in 7 hrs.
and about 250$ later (which i totally didnt realised i spent!)
thursday doesnt have to really be mentioned cause i awoke at 3pm and slept at 5pm and did random and boring stuff inbetween all in the comfort of home and my fav blue pjs!
friday was madness.
with less than 6 hrs of sleep i had to face 60 screaming, wriggling and deaf young young humanoids!
but i enjoyed it! haha
manda was there too! <3
hope i get to do that againm! (with fingers tightly crossed!)
sigh! i hope i wake up in time tml to get to the market to eat cheecheongfun(FABULOUSLY DELISH!) and buy oldschoolshoes! <3<3<3
old pic of me! found it.
i want balloons like these for my birthday.
pretty please.
at this very instant im experiencing a very overwhelming and suffocating sense of failure.
i cant seem to find any proper job.
im barely equipped with any skills.
i dont keep my promises.
the only seemingly redeeming attribute that i possess is that im excellent at wasting time.
:'(((
IM SICK SICK SICK.
sniffling 24/7, sneezing my dust bunnies out, weak limbs and achnig body.
boo.
gee not fun at all.
buy my cookies! bluetopazgurl@yahoo.com
thank You for simple pleasures in life.
because it is sunny today.
as You'd promised.
:)
i want this pair of purrrttyy rainboots!
Yellow Zelda John Lemon Rainboot in size 9
too bad its all the way over in target us, where those mean pricks wont ship over to sg!
:((((
anyone wanna buy it for me and ship it all the way here at your own cost? ;)
wednesday
i went night cylcing after a row with the parental authority [stating reasons for me to gallivant around in the mid of the night on a bike!] from 1 till 4++ am, after
eating teochewbui
inhaling french fries at bm's mac
and speed cycling around gwc!
friday
i went night cycling again!
with weiwei kennyboy yz cm and we headed from
yz's to
rivervalley for prata [mmmmmhh! yummy eggpratas!] to
all the way through town from borders to ps
and then to clarke quay
lau pa sat
bm's macs for HASHBROWNS! <3
and finally home at 0530hrs.
haah amazing
sat
i was dragged up to go wakeboarding ALL THE WAY AT PUNGGOL
i almost died en route sengkeng!
but it was awesome, mortifying[when i could barely get up and when i SPLASHED/dived HAHAHAHAH]
and exhausting!
now my body is aching quite a bit and my fingers are essentially uselessssss
i think im headed towards dumpsterland at 100km/min.
because firstly, i havent bathed since monday night [HAHAH :)]
ive been cooped up at home since then
all i do is eat rubbish like oranges, buttered toast, stealing dinner at 6pm, drinking gallons of too-sweet ribena, eating tons of hammered pork, msg-enhanced fattening japanese snacks and whatnot.
everynight i sleep at 4/5am after scrolling through pages of lj
and wake up after 2pm!
and my hair keeps growing longer!! yay for my pretty hair that needs a haircut!
yet i feel perfectly comfy!
plusssss
my entire desk in the room has makeup products STREWN ALL OVER! [mac is love!]
this comp area is flooded with cards, chocolates, headphones, curlers, beads and more random rubbish.
the dining table is full of food products that i keep tossing on it!
the living room has a pile of thailand stuff RIGHT in the middle in front of the tv,
and the other comp area is starting to get a lil cramped with the nail polishes ive been bringing over!
hehehe.
dumpsterland, anyone?
haha i know we've distanced seeing the fact that i dont call you anymore and vice versa, we dont arrange to go out at all, i didnt even bother to reply that msg and there's no mention of me on yr blog and same goes for mine.
haha what to do. thats life. im not self-pitying myself on having this great friendship sorta chill to a large extent but more of a matter-of-fact that i felt like seeing on print.
eehh now i just sit here and wait for pple to approach me to chat cause i wouldnt for the life of me initiate anything unless i need a favour of some sorts. haha.
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BUY COOKIES FROM ME NOWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!
- chocolatechip or chocolatechipwalnut [yeah i bake them myself!!!]
- 4cm++ in diameter?
- 3 for a dollar!
- minumum 15 cookies per order!
- ill try to accede to special requests! :)) but charge a lil high i suppose! ;) a lil only!
- bluetopazgurl@yahoo.com
everyday i pour over almost every entry at the mac lj community
and on saturday i spent over over overrr a hundred sing buying 4 mac items
bitter e/s
flashtrack e/s
blue asinthe e/s
naked you msf [which imho is prettier than petticoat :)]
and im still staring and drooling helplessly at the products.
sigh.
shot me please.
hahahahahahahaha cause the mother has yet to know bout the purchase!
and the many more to come. :)))))))))
i get all these thank-you notes and grateful msgs and i feel so repelled by myself.
because ive cheated you all.
i wasnt spiritually ready when i went on the trip and the main reason i went was because i felt obliged to.
it wasnt because i felt the calling to, but because i was expected to.
it worsened when i became the 2ic cause im a cheat.
a repulsive fraud.
when i get all this thankyous and whatnnots i merely keep silent because i have nothing to say because i dont deserve it all a single bit.
i came back not yearning desparately to have stayed because my heart wasnt right to begin with when i went on the trip. its disgusting what ive portrayed myself to be because in the very end im only deceiving myself and the pple whom i enjoy being with.