Monday, July 31, 2006

ARRR!!!!!! BILLIONS OF BLISTERING BARNACLES!
this is just a simple and ridiculous post to show

HOW ADDICTED TO PUZZLEPIRATES I AM, SEEING THAT ITS PAST 6 AM, and to think i started at 2 am.

Ahoy, thanks loads, GLENDA matey, seriously <3<3



now i need to force myself to get some shuteye before the sun rises!! :S:S:S:S

C at 6:36 PM |
------ Thursday, July 27, 2006

so when one agrees quite begrudgingly to leave her comfort zone for 5 days straight, one obviously hopes everything would be fine and dandy.

the people you meet are nice; but thats what one only thinks.

BUT
when the seniors who surround you pass unflattering comments in hushed tones on the one (out of two) person who is your supposed guardian for the entire stay, what are you to do?
when the people you look up to speak crassly of your temporary trustee, how are you to react?
no doubt that the person in question might have been obnoxious occasionally, but the sublimal messages get through, very clearly. so almost unwillingly, you are coerced into pledging your loyalty to the individual you barely know, to say the least. And then, your emotions have taken that one stand.

so cue many hours later, a cold and griping realisation slaps you across the face that your trust that you vunerably placed in individuals you never thought you would so willingly give has been played with. toyed with such precise yet reckless moves and actions, with situations you yourself unknowingly volunteered as ready bait. would you be upset, to say the least?

denial and relief sets in first, obliviously rejoicing at the fact that nasty was just an act. but abruptly, like a stallion racing across an open field, whitehot raging anger charges in, and smothers all other emotions. so thats when logic and cool are inevitably forgotten and tossed away, allowing anger to fuel one's mind.

so unless you yourself have been forced onto an emotional rollercoaster which was rigged from the very beginning, you have absolutely no prerogative to take snide or rude swipes at us/me. and when you look/act like that, but type like that, i dont think i can respect you anymore.

C at 5:35 PM |
------ Thursday, July 20, 2006

as the consequential actions and comments that serve as reminders and remains of the 5dayactionanddramafilled camp constantly bombard almost every moment i have, i am filled with dread at the very thought of even starting school.

because like the stench of death, rumours and gossip stick to your silhouette and hound you till they either tear you down, or you create new ones to put the old ones to rest.

i am too drained to stand up tall to battle all this bullshit.
and school beckons, in 3 weeks.

C at 12:24 AM |
------ Monday, July 17, 2006

i abhor the way i feel.
and i detest the person i am.

C at 1:09 AM |
------ Monday, July 10, 2006

im panicking in such a way that my mouth hasnt closed and my teeth has remained clenched for the better half of an hour.
i think ill just call in and tell them ive personal matters to attend to for FIVE days straight.

;S

C at 1:49 AM |
------ hits. since 041104