Last life in the Universe.
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so hiding behind a comp and being on YOHOHOPIRATES means that i dont have to interact/chitchat/be social.
so yay for yohoho, then.
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seeing that im actually jealous of people i dont know directly shows that i still do care.
seriously?!
sigh; @#$%^&(*&^%$#
ive been really really angry over several things, and bottling them all up has really made me an emotional wreck. right now, going over the incidents in slowmotionrepeatmode in my mind has really cracked the bottle, and im going force myself out of this state.
kheng/therest: i know you guys think that im merely being emotional and seirously just being drama, as usual. i clearly remember the line ''but the other girls are here'' being uttered, and to be very (embarassingly&) brutally frank i was hurt. right now i am putting aside my pride and all the bull and the only thing i want is for you pple to start talking to me first please(as the simplest and least demanding form of an apology).
alexis: you get 5 good shifts, i get none. i ask for one in exhange, reasons being i need a few more hrs of rest from an upcoming overnight bikeride and me really wanting to go for the 12%, and you claim they are not valid. the extent of disappointment, frustration and anger you've made me feel; i doubt you have any idea, cause i really treat you almost like a best friend. i would have done the same for you if you asked me so.
eunice: when i protested against the uncalledfor comment you made bout my sis, you outrightly ignored me. i let that slide. and then you dissed me indirectly to my face. friends dont do that to one another.
j: i made negative comments on your actions, and passed them on to your sister so that you would be aware that pple disliked them. you made public degradatory passages on my character which werre away below the belt, right in the crotch. and now you try giving me halfpolite smiles. i end up turning away in awkwardness and shock, but mostly in shock, of how vicious a christian can actually be.
dt: i have no idea what happened 2(?) years ago, but lets be civil. say hi, and ill return it back.
the person who dissed me on a public blog: you did it; own up to it. dont slap on a huge amount of frosting over the entire incident by posting some random cutesy comment on my blog and expect me to get over it. dont apologise if you cant bring yourself to; admit to it to me, tell me you didnt mean it(or some other untrue statement like that) then maybe ill start noticing your presence.
im not doing this to get back at you/s, im doing this to get myself back. if your angry with me, tell me.
this time around, after calling the mother on the cell and whinining and sobbing bout this incident to her LIKE A TOTAL BABY,sigh; i am at a total loss on who to contact and curse to.
cause i dont know who a friend is anymore.
cause this time round,
money >>>>> me.
